In WondeR

It's sometimes difficult to deal with issues alone. Although they are our own, I guess we can always do with someone to hear us out. Which can sometimes leave you wondering where your friends are in time of need. Even your best friend. Are we a bit apprehensive even to just pick up the phone and dial their number? Is it our ego? Or are we just afraid that when we do get a chance to talk to them, we have nothing to say because we don't know how to. Anyway, there are people in my life who's attitudes just keep changing all the time. Are they afraid to open up? Or are they just unaware that in some twisted way, they're blocking the people who really care about them out of their lives? That leaves me thinking. Why are they like that? There are just so many things to tell them but when the time comes you just don't want to. It's like they're in this weird mood and so you just don't feel like telling them anymore.
Number one you're in a sad state of mind. Number two they make you feel like they're not interested. My point being, why should I be there for people all the time? Every single time. Every time they need something. Evertime they need someone to talk to. to share everything funny and sad. Where are they when I need them? They're nowhere. Puts things into perspective. They're there when you wanna have fun and a few laughs. But to even spend the holidays with. They don't make you like you belong. Makes you wonder doesn't it?

The Last Time

Do we ever know when it's the last time? When will we know the last time we'll ever meet someone or the last time we'll ever talk to a person? We'll never know. We'll never know when it's our last day on earth or when we'll breathe our last breath. It's very surreal to think about it and also overwhelming. The last encounter will always remain in our heads as long as our memory allows it. Memories, good or bad, that last time with someone or the last time time there was contact or anyting else will always com of 'what if' questions are asked or we regretting about the oast wishing we had spent more time with that pesron or wishin we hadn't taken them for granted. e to us. It'll be the first thing we'll remember when we think of them. Is it the most memorable? In our minds it's a preferred way of connecting the memory with. That last moment. The reason why we never forget that last time is because it makes us think. That one moment makes us look back and wonder about the unknown. A lot of 'what if' questions come up. We end up wishing we had spent more time with the person or wishing that we had never taken them for grantted. The last time we cried, the last time we laughed so hard or the last time we had a great time.
But looking back, thnking about the last ime time with someone always makes me sad and leaves me in wonder. So most times wheni'm doing anything, whether it's talking to someone or just hanging out woth a bunch of people, I'm always wondering if this will be the last time ever. It's a scary thought although it's good in a way because you'll really live the moment and enjoy everything about it. As they say, live each day as though it were your last.

Dealing With It

If we don’t take responsibility for our actions then who will? What I don’t understand is how people can be so delusional and not accept the reality put before them. What can someone do to help them realise it? Perhaps there will never be an answer to that. My question her is, how can one blame someone else for the way his or her life has turned out to be? That’s the way life is, in the sense that whatever we have planned does not always work out for us. We have to accept things the way they are and learn to adjust. In the same way, we can’t expect others to change unless we do. For every disappointment in life, there’s always a reason behind it. Most times it doesn’t make sense. How can we understand someone’s behaviour? Is it the up bringing? Is it the people who they are surrounded by? Did they inherit that trait? Or was it circumstantial? Everyone in the world has to go through a number of hardships. I think that perhaps every single one of us has been given equal opportunity and equal failure. The only thing that makes them unique is how we deal with situation. Since we are all given equal opportunity, then it all depends on whether we find it or choose to overlook them.
As a child, I often wondered what the future had in store for me. What would I be when I grow up? Where would I live? What would I look like? All of the time I had a picture in my mind that I would be happy. However, it turned out to be completely different. The picture is hazy and the future is blurred. There doesn’t seem to be a reason to look forward. Everything is saturated and mentally taxing. In such a situation, I’m helpless. Unable to help the ones around me who are in danger of getting their feelings hurt and unable to help myself from negative forces. The important thing here is that will they ever let go? Will we as humans ever are able to let go of the fears that are holding us back? Or rather, taking over our lives? Only those brave enough to face those fears will be able to say yes. The others will dwell in the past and look for many reasons to look for self pity. What is the outcome of all this? Is there any outcome to begin with? I’m thinking not. The world today is such a place where the sad are getting sadder and the poor are getting poorer. How to we deal with this? Taking responsibility and trying to look for a better way to live, would be one way. It’s difficult to change someone’s beliefs and principals. So let nature take it’s own course.

ALL †haT Jåzz

The way I see things is very simple. Opportunities are put before you all the time, you just have to read between the lines and look at the big picture. So what do you do when there's something out in front of you? Grab it and enjoy the moment because this is the only time you get to work around it. No regrets then. 'Oh I should have done this and I should have done that. All that jazz.' And when things happen around you that are totally going to get your mind thinking and thinking and thinking, a good idea is too just let it fly by. Let it go. It's not worth being thought about. Once you let them just fly by, you'll completely forget about it. So what's the verdict this time? Nothing. Everything is just as it should be.

As the Days Go By

As the days go by, I often find myself wondering about the next step. Are we too afraid to take the next step to achieve our goals? Personally, I think the answer is yes. For me, I sometimes find it difficult to complete a task. Any task. I wonder why? Somehow, I'm afraid of the feeling of achievement. Because after achieving it, then what? It's just a thought that crosses my mind every now and then.

Said Goodbye to the Old

Well it's a new year and I've said goodbye to the past and I'm welcoming the new. Closed one chapter and starting a brand new one. It's a wonderful feeling to experience the 'newness'. Just like a breath of fresh air. Take each day as it comes, I say. Sometimes you just have to take things at face value. Like a breeze. I think if we want to erase some bitter memories of the past, we should leave the past behind and move on. That's the goodness of the new year. There's always hope and an oppoortunity to start afresh. Even when you feel as though the people around you aren't giving you another chance, time always gives you another chance to start over again. So here's to a brand new year. Let's hope this year is better than last year. Cheers!