In WondeR

It's sometimes difficult to deal with issues alone. Although they are our own, I guess we can always do with someone to hear us out. Which can sometimes leave you wondering where your friends are in time of need. Even your best friend. Are we a bit apprehensive even to just pick up the phone and dial their number? Is it our ego? Or are we just afraid that when we do get a chance to talk to them, we have nothing to say because we don't know how to. Anyway, there are people in my life who's attitudes just keep changing all the time. Are they afraid to open up? Or are they just unaware that in some twisted way, they're blocking the people who really care about them out of their lives? That leaves me thinking. Why are they like that? There are just so many things to tell them but when the time comes you just don't want to. It's like they're in this weird mood and so you just don't feel like telling them anymore.
Number one you're in a sad state of mind. Number two they make you feel like they're not interested. My point being, why should I be there for people all the time? Every single time. Every time they need something. Evertime they need someone to talk to. to share everything funny and sad. Where are they when I need them? They're nowhere. Puts things into perspective. They're there when you wanna have fun and a few laughs. But to even spend the holidays with. They don't make you like you belong. Makes you wonder doesn't it?