In WondeR

It's sometimes difficult to deal with issues alone. Although they are our own, I guess we can always do with someone to hear us out. Which can sometimes leave you wondering where your friends are in time of need. Even your best friend. Are we a bit apprehensive even to just pick up the phone and dial their number? Is it our ego? Or are we just afraid that when we do get a chance to talk to them, we have nothing to say because we don't know how to. Anyway, there are people in my life who's attitudes just keep changing all the time. Are they afraid to open up? Or are they just unaware that in some twisted way, they're blocking the people who really care about them out of their lives? That leaves me thinking. Why are they like that? There are just so many things to tell them but when the time comes you just don't want to. It's like they're in this weird mood and so you just don't feel like telling them anymore.
Number one you're in a sad state of mind. Number two they make you feel like they're not interested. My point being, why should I be there for people all the time? Every single time. Every time they need something. Evertime they need someone to talk to. to share everything funny and sad. Where are they when I need them? They're nowhere. Puts things into perspective. They're there when you wanna have fun and a few laughs. But to even spend the holidays with. They don't make you like you belong. Makes you wonder doesn't it?

The Last Time

Do we ever know when it's the last time? When will we know the last time we'll ever meet someone or the last time we'll ever talk to a person? We'll never know. We'll never know when it's our last day on earth or when we'll breathe our last breath. It's very surreal to think about it and also overwhelming. The last encounter will always remain in our heads as long as our memory allows it. Memories, good or bad, that last time with someone or the last time time there was contact or anyting else will always com of 'what if' questions are asked or we regretting about the oast wishing we had spent more time with that pesron or wishin we hadn't taken them for granted. e to us. It'll be the first thing we'll remember when we think of them. Is it the most memorable? In our minds it's a preferred way of connecting the memory with. That last moment. The reason why we never forget that last time is because it makes us think. That one moment makes us look back and wonder about the unknown. A lot of 'what if' questions come up. We end up wishing we had spent more time with the person or wishing that we had never taken them for grantted. The last time we cried, the last time we laughed so hard or the last time we had a great time.
But looking back, thnking about the last ime time with someone always makes me sad and leaves me in wonder. So most times wheni'm doing anything, whether it's talking to someone or just hanging out woth a bunch of people, I'm always wondering if this will be the last time ever. It's a scary thought although it's good in a way because you'll really live the moment and enjoy everything about it. As they say, live each day as though it were your last.

Dealing With It

If we don’t take responsibility for our actions then who will? What I don’t understand is how people can be so delusional and not accept the reality put before them. What can someone do to help them realise it? Perhaps there will never be an answer to that. My question her is, how can one blame someone else for the way his or her life has turned out to be? That’s the way life is, in the sense that whatever we have planned does not always work out for us. We have to accept things the way they are and learn to adjust. In the same way, we can’t expect others to change unless we do. For every disappointment in life, there’s always a reason behind it. Most times it doesn’t make sense. How can we understand someone’s behaviour? Is it the up bringing? Is it the people who they are surrounded by? Did they inherit that trait? Or was it circumstantial? Everyone in the world has to go through a number of hardships. I think that perhaps every single one of us has been given equal opportunity and equal failure. The only thing that makes them unique is how we deal with situation. Since we are all given equal opportunity, then it all depends on whether we find it or choose to overlook them.
As a child, I often wondered what the future had in store for me. What would I be when I grow up? Where would I live? What would I look like? All of the time I had a picture in my mind that I would be happy. However, it turned out to be completely different. The picture is hazy and the future is blurred. There doesn’t seem to be a reason to look forward. Everything is saturated and mentally taxing. In such a situation, I’m helpless. Unable to help the ones around me who are in danger of getting their feelings hurt and unable to help myself from negative forces. The important thing here is that will they ever let go? Will we as humans ever are able to let go of the fears that are holding us back? Or rather, taking over our lives? Only those brave enough to face those fears will be able to say yes. The others will dwell in the past and look for many reasons to look for self pity. What is the outcome of all this? Is there any outcome to begin with? I’m thinking not. The world today is such a place where the sad are getting sadder and the poor are getting poorer. How to we deal with this? Taking responsibility and trying to look for a better way to live, would be one way. It’s difficult to change someone’s beliefs and principals. So let nature take it’s own course.

ALL †haT Jåzz

The way I see things is very simple. Opportunities are put before you all the time, you just have to read between the lines and look at the big picture. So what do you do when there's something out in front of you? Grab it and enjoy the moment because this is the only time you get to work around it. No regrets then. 'Oh I should have done this and I should have done that. All that jazz.' And when things happen around you that are totally going to get your mind thinking and thinking and thinking, a good idea is too just let it fly by. Let it go. It's not worth being thought about. Once you let them just fly by, you'll completely forget about it. So what's the verdict this time? Nothing. Everything is just as it should be.

As the Days Go By

As the days go by, I often find myself wondering about the next step. Are we too afraid to take the next step to achieve our goals? Personally, I think the answer is yes. For me, I sometimes find it difficult to complete a task. Any task. I wonder why? Somehow, I'm afraid of the feeling of achievement. Because after achieving it, then what? It's just a thought that crosses my mind every now and then.

Said Goodbye to the Old

Well it's a new year and I've said goodbye to the past and I'm welcoming the new. Closed one chapter and starting a brand new one. It's a wonderful feeling to experience the 'newness'. Just like a breath of fresh air. Take each day as it comes, I say. Sometimes you just have to take things at face value. Like a breeze. I think if we want to erase some bitter memories of the past, we should leave the past behind and move on. That's the goodness of the new year. There's always hope and an oppoortunity to start afresh. Even when you feel as though the people around you aren't giving you another chance, time always gives you another chance to start over again. So here's to a brand new year. Let's hope this year is better than last year. Cheers!

We Have Wasted The Unknown

The one thing that I fear the most, is the Unknown. For some reason, it just does. Unceratinty is what really takes the mind to a place of unpleasantness because we are always creating scenarios in our head. That's what causes us to worry. Ever ask yourself the 'what if' question? This what I mean about wasting the unknown. Sometimes you just don't know what would have happened if you didn't make a certain move. It's a great feeling to know that you have the right move. You always think in your mind that a certain event wouldn't have happened of you didn't make the move. Just like in realationships. It's a great feeling to know that you had explored the unknown. You feel happy and content. It's time we start living it up.

Time just passes you by

It's that time of the year again, when you reflect on the past one year. You ask yourself if you have changed. Changed for the better or for worse? You evaluate your relationships and the people you have come across. We all go through ups and downs in life. This year, I realised something about relationships. You have to choose one person and make it work. Just one. If you don't feel a connection and if there's no chemistry, then don't get into the relationship. Don't date someone because you're bored, the relationship just becomes sparkless. Well, it just goes like, if you don't feel it, then don't. Relationships are not a hobby.

We Will Never Be Alone

There's a popular belief that there is always a someone made for you. That is true. Just believe in it and you will find just how wonderful it is. I haven't really experienced it but i believe that there is someone for each one of us in this world, just waiting to find us or for us to find them. Believing it makes it more of a reality sooner or later. We will never end up alone. People are alone because they choose to be alone. They have closed their hearts to any form of goodness and love. Perhaps they were betrayed ot deceived earlier. But life goes on and we have to start hoping for better days to come. Waiting for the One really drives you crazy. But in the end it is worth the wait. Some people find the right person early and some people find them later on in life. But at the end of the day, we do find them. It's a great feeling because we have found our reason.

We Are All Waiting

We often wonder what is our purpose in life. People die, relationships don't. Do we spend an entire lifetime wondering about things that could have happened? We are all looking for love. We are all looking for the one. Someone who will rescue us and take us to a better place. The one is the person you are not afraid to lose at any point in your life. No matter where the person goes or what they may do, you jus know that they will come back to you under any circumstances. That person is the one. When you love someone, you tell them that you do. If you wait then the moment just passes you by. Don't let the moment pass you by because that moment can change your life forever. We are all waiting. Waiting for that special someone to spend the rest of our lives with...

Eveybody's changing

The only thing constant in this universe is change. Well apart from death, change is something that we know is going to happen at any time. We expect it. Everything under the sun changes. One of the biggest changes are behaviour in human beings. The people around us. Some people change for the better and some people change for the worst. Change always had an affect on people, whether its is good or bad. Everybody changes, sometimes they just forget to tell us that they have changed.
What do we do when the people that mean the world to us suddenly change? Move on I guess. Its the only way to say that "yeah shit happens, but what are you gonna do about it?" Some people just change overnight and the reason is unknown. No matter how hard you try to find out the reason, you cannot. The person has changed and you probably are not on the same page. You have become different people. Its sad when they change, its even worse when you dont know how to handle the overwhelming change.
But it is a part of life. What kind of life is it when you are living the same everyday?

acquaintance, friend, lover?

You took your coat off and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that
I watched from my window
Always felt I was outside looking in on you
You were always the mysterious one with dark eyes and careless hair
You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care
Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather
Well in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see
This is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees
These foolish games are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart
You were always brilliant in morning
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee
You philosophies on art, Baroque moved you
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar
You'd teach me of honest things
Things that were daring, things that were clean
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean
So I hid my soiled hands behind my back
Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you
Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself
These foolish games are tearing me apart
You're tearing me, tearing me, tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart
You took off your coat and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that

Passion

What is life without passion? What is life without individuality? What is individuality without passion? Life is nothing without passion. Life does not exist without individuality. It is dull. Having passion is like breathing air. Being passionate about almost anything that you do, that is life. Even if it is just painting or driving to work. Great passion is like an explosion of energy. Life become powerful and full of energy. Be passionate.